I honestly can't take in all the heartfelt condolences that you have shown to me.
I was not after such things, I was just trying to inform the people who have come into our lives through this site and knew us personally, that Mal was at rest. But you have all shown that it is more than that, you are really a bunch of down to earth people who really do care about peoples feelings.
I will just tell you one thing.
During the hard times I was going through, I used this site as a way to keep myself from climbing up the walls. Even though I couldn't contribute much on the build or showing side, I did try to keep myself going by attempting to help as much as I could by maybe pointing people in the right directions, rather than showing them.
Maybe it was being selfish on my part, but it did get me through my anguish and my feelings of helplessness.
Now, hopefully, when my grief subsides, and I feel well enough to get back into my workshop, I will start to contribute more on the physical side, to repay back some what you have done for me.
Mal will be leaving us bodily on Valentines day, 14th February, and I have just finished writing and planning her parting.
I am not a religious person in any way shape or form, but if you don't mind, I will show you the final words of her service that I have chosen, and I hope it sums Marilyn up perfectly, whether religious or not.
She Is Gone
You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
Or you can be full of the love that you shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can remember her and only that she is gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
Thank you everyone.
I will be back, hopefully sooner rather than later.
John